teeth

it seems that it is a never ending battle. the work i had done is so far so good. but my mouth is retaliating to the front teeth and not holding the crowns well. it seems to be realistic to get implants or a bridge. i feel a bit nervous about a bridge. it seems to me that it will be less lasting than implants at not too much of a cost difference. cost, is the main problem for i have no money but i will get it done. determination is the key, oh and persistence. i still fully back jerard trombka, d.d.s. in south lake tahoe,ca as well as grace dental care. if you value your teeth you should too. god, i cannot wait to get my ass back to thailand....

home sweet stress

so i am back, i have a ton of stuff to write to you all about. i will get to it when i dont have oliver with me.

actually bangkok is not for lovers...even patpong

wow, this place is filthy and disgusting. i am quite exuberant with my choice of residing in chiang mai for my trip. i could have gotten alot done here as well but been miserable at the same time. i think i've figured out the tuk tuk sawngtheaw game also. tuk tuk's are for when you need to jsut get there and sawngtheaw's are for you to just get there. anyhow, i spent yesterday helping my friend take care of some of his chores and then had a mango shake with a few folks and headed for the satanii rot fai commonly known as the train station. it was a delightful experience doing nei gung on the platforms with kids mocking me. makes me learn to focus and receive humility better though. i got on the train and one of my friends ended up on it also. he had missed his train the day before waiting for money to be deposited in his account. i got to show off my new teeth to him. their fancy. then after we got moving i went to the diner car to meet him. i had no idea such a thing existed on my way up. goes to show the drunks know where to drink. the railway employee's and thai police got me to d.j. for the car and we were rocking out to subhumans, the bad things, and some dirty south rap. it was so surreal and hilarious at the same time. then a very drunk cop fed us freshly caught fish, only he wanted to put it in our mouths. so we let him as we have never been fed by a police officer before. it was delicious. i left after having a remarkably good green curry with duck and soup with unknown meat, went to finish my book and go to sleep. it was hot and i rather enjoyed the sound of the train anyhow bringing me back to past days so i opened the window and let in the breeze. i got woken up by a employee atleast five times and told to close it. but, i opened it right away again. i'm just stupid westerner anyhow. the best part was sitting and standing out the door. it made it have less of a passenger feel to it. i'm almost out of time and have no more 10 baht coins so i'm out. going to the forensic and medical oddities museum and then to the talisman market....nice. more to come as soon as i am sitting longer. i leave the guesthouse at 5am for the airport. OH, i forgot to mention that i talked with a monk while catching a ride the other day and he gave me a protective shiva talisman to keep me safe in all my paths. so i got my charms, the ganesh, shiva, and mary magdalene. i'm set for the sky....

i train hobbie ride motorpopsicle

so i amheaded out on the train back to bangkok today. i don't really have time to postand this computer is horrible. i will have a huge entry tomorrow morning (that's tonite for all of you ahmerEEkahn's) from bangkok. it will be sleep deprived and jumbled. sounds like fun. as sophie would say,rockin. ok wish me luck. on a warm summers evening on a train bound for bangkok. i met up with a drunk, he talked too much for me to sleep. so we took turns starin and pukin out the window. til boredom overtook us and there'sno food to eat. you've got to know when to hold em,know when to fold em, know when to gag their mouths, so you can sleep, you never count your money when walking in the market, there'll be none left for countin. with your brand new teeth. man, do i have a long ways to go and short attention span while gettin there.

ok, so i only have a minute

today is a scramble. i am being worked like a water buffalo during harvest today. i leave this wonderfully hot internet cafe loaded with the smell of sweaty farang who drink an abundance of alcohol and drop off my bike, go to my thai lesson (of which i will be in more detail about later), go to the dentist for the last time this trip(!), then head to a mutual friends tattoo shop for some new work. this is going to get a little hectic. i feel similar to the time i was 15 or 16 and on acid making scrambled eggs. the eggs turned into little baby chicks spasming about, then resumed their scrambled appearance. this was a profound moment in reality for me but that is straying form the topic at hand. that being. i sympathize with the eggs as i relate to their feelings during this blending of the body. hah, i'm nuts. yesterday i went to meet my friend dumpy who has been having a hard time. i trekked my little feet across the hot concrete to rescue him from the taxi's at the train station. he wasn't on the train. so i meet this couple by corralling them into a sawngthaew before they knew what they were doing and getting them to get a room at my guest house. i think i found a way to make money here. i'm good at that. i just wanted cheap fare to be honest with you though. dumpy showed up a couple of hours later after i got back from the big mall. we went for food and entertainment. i just want to find canned bugs honestly. sounds marvelous. so i have ot make my way now, i hope to fit in an interview with someone who has gone through alot of medical procedure here and see their opinions on thai healthcare so i can report back to you but i am not sure it will work out. either way the best is yet to come.....especially since i'm broke....hahaha

flying turtles dropping kao phod on mcdonalds

it is hot and the ants are marching one by one out of my pores right this instant. no really, where the hell do they keep coming from.....

days are days, it's true

yup, sitting in air conditioning drinking some coffee and listening to metal. just had some curry and milk with honey and again am tired of being a farang here in the enchaningly smoggy city of chiang mai becasue my food doesn't et cooked spicy. yes, i understand that besides the fact most of us can't handle hte heat that i can add chilies from the table. but it's different when it's cooked in. the other day i got some udon soup and the guy said he make it no spicy for me. i said to please make it normal and spicy. he said sure and laughed. i guess i deserve it. wait, do i?
i really like the guesthouse i am at now. i plan on coming back to it next time i am here. the head lady isn't the most charming of hostesses but her inn is amazing. i talked to the owners brother also the other day who was visiting. it is interesting talking with the wealthier people here versus the working class. they seem so relaxed and untroubled. i still can't relate. i know what my life is going to be when i return and i look forward to it. thailand has deffinitely made an impression not unlike stepping in wet sand on me. it's funny too, while it seems so cheap here really it isn't. a realization i keep watching people go through. especially if you go to bars. you're money will practiacally leap out of your pocket into the lurking farang owners bar. i could rant forever but i am free today and plan on heading out of town for a few hours.
my friends left today. well, some of them. so i am roaming alone again. i did get them to go out and do things they otherwise wouldn't have though. i think i'm pretty good at corraling people up and pointing them in a direction and saying, let's walk. it will be what it is. i am also free tomorrow, friday the 13th. although i don't think that means anything here. but i realize i am missing some amazing party somewhere at home...darn. i could jsut go laugh at tourist with teh ladyboys instead.
grace has done me right. i finish on saturday there. i will have alot of teeth by that point. in fact i think i will only be missing a couple of which wheni come back to thailand next year to complete these crowns also ( i have temps in until then) i will have a full mouth. you can't go wrong there. but i still miss my gap a little. i'm telling you they are so good, get yoru butt over here and start eating again. i went by teh other place i was going to torture myself at. dental4u. it looks kinda crappy. i believe i made the right decision.
i went out for a oil massage with a friend last night. we biked around until we found a place that seemed ok. i went upstairs and took off my clothes (minus underwear) and laid down on teh most uncomfortable pillow i can recall. then people kept lurking bhind hte curtain and by my stuff. it's not uncommon for folks to get robbed while receiving a massage. then we heard (my friend was on tehother side of the room) some guy tlaking to the girls negotiating his price for a happy ending and beyond. after that conversation and about 12 minutes into my hour long massage the lady i have switched with another who applied about 4 pounds of pressure the whole time. i couldn't tell if i was being painted or massaged. then some guy comes up yelling hello for 5 minutes until someone met him. then their kids came up right after and turned on teh television so all you could hear was it blasting. i don't even know what my massuse looked like as i didn't want to look at her and have her see my frustration. my friend said hers was alright. she got an old lady. so now i know, old ladies or the blind for a good massage. remember that.
i go play now